Wow is it the end of this year already...
January: Met ~Acerna-chan
, aka my waifu and sissu
Although the submission date was in February, this picture was made in January!! I still used ridiculously thin lineart at this point.
Februrary: Kiriban picture for !memizo
, who left dA
I really started liking my art and techniques at this point, which didn't last very long though.
March: Did a lot of Gaia commissions at this point! I think I making multiple drawings a day (only sketches though) but it was still the biggest output I've ever had. It made me happy to really be in the swing of things like that, but it didn't last forever. I hope to be that way this break though.
April: My tablet pen finally broke after being on the edge for a while. Before that point the eraser had stopped working and the tip was always acting up with wonky pressure sensitivity. Finally the pen just completely exploded which made it, uh, useless to say the least. I made do with my mouse though, by picking up pixel art and also digitally coloring sketches!
May: I started wanting to enter contests again, and I made this piece with the new pen Acerna bought me when she came to visit
I felt disappointed with my abilities again though. My technique became sloppier and my choice of colors didn't end up that great /sigh.
June: Trying to get back into my old style! I completely forgot how it was that I colored hair and I was trying to find it again. I think I felt increasingly dejected about how much I liked my art before my tablet pen broke.
July: I was living with my aunt again and I traveled across the country to see family during this month! Since I was feeling lazier about lineart I decided to do some experiments. I wanted to explore a little without feeling bad about wasting time on a bunch of failed attempts in the process, but of course now I wish I was able to use my time more effectively
August: I tried again something in my old style, but this time I was really encouraged by the results. I took a look at what I made at the same time last year, and so many things had improved by that point. I was and am still not perfect, but it was definitely satisfying to grasp something that I really liked again.
September: More Tara! I really liked drawing her this year. I was pretty busy with classes though so for the most part I had to squeeze in making art. I ended up burning out severely later. This year was so depressing
October: I wanted to make a wallpaper series to advertise for my contest, but I only got to the first character!! I think this was definitely at the point at which I was losing my drive to accomplish anything since I wasn't even inspired to draw Tara who I typically love to make. I became more hypercritical of my art, and Acerna can attest to the fact that I would absolutely beg for critiques since I didn't want anything to be wrong at the point of submission. I also felt increasingly guilty that I wasn't making things for people's birthdays because it was always so incredibly important to me to do something on time to show that I care.
November: I still wanted so much for myself but I didn't have the energy to do anything. I wanted to reopen a shop on Gaia, I wanted to make drawings every day, but in the end I feel like I just crashed and couldn't deal with it really. I was still trying to make late birthday art! I felt bad that I couldn't get my act together. I was, and probably still am, hypercritical of my mistakes, although it was easier to get to the point of completion.
December: I think this piece made up for most of the floundering I did for the rest of the year. I was at this point mostly doodling in my notebooks in class and I was practicing with perspective, backgrounds, and so forth. I'm not diligent enough to render all those complicated drawings digitally, but I still got the practice out of it and used it, coupled with patience with myself, to make this gift for my good friend ~AdidaTiki
. It was a sort of remake from a piece I did previously, and in the end I was happy to have made it this far despite all the mental setbacks I'd been having. For the most part things were looking up, but...
I hope to work harder in 2013. Thank you everyone for your support
EDIT: And for those who want to see that remake I was talking about